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I don't like kids
Espicially little ones
They grab at me and they are
Too
Loud
Mother said I was a quiet baby
I didn't cry much
I never laughed
And I started to talk late
Even then I was shy and alone
I always alone
* * *
When I was little
My best friend was Aurora
She was shy
And she loved sports
Lacrosse, swimming, and hockey were her
Faveriotes
I do not know what happened to her
She died I guess
It scares my a little
Not knowing where she is
Or how she died
Or even if she died
We wouldn't be best friends now
I like to think thst dhe
Blossomed
Grew
Out of old habits
I am always in the rut
* * *
Some lonely people are readers
I am not
I don't like reading
People say you loose yourself in a book
I don't like that
I like to know where and who I am
I want to stay firmly
HERE
I read only for school
Sometimes
I do loose myself
I loose myself so bad I can't find myself
It scares me
And I scream
I scream
Mother or Lilly would help me
In old times
They'd hold my hand and sing to me
* * *
I loose myself when I sing
But not in a bookish way
I get into
And
Become
Part of the song
And I can't be lost
Cause I know where I am
I am here
In song
* * *
I am easily scared
A boy
Kaleb
Is constantly teasing me and torturing me
I'm scared of him
He's evil
* * *
Don't be frightened Aria. Keep up good will and spirt. Don't be a push over.
L I V E
* * *
I miss
Mother and Lilly
Why them?
Why?
* * *
My best friend now is Willie
He's a cat
A calico kitten
With big green eyes
And a scruffy coat
Ms. Pellerwit found him and his brother and sisters
In an old orange crate
There are so many of them
One of his sisters
Roxii
Got sold
And another
Cinderella
Died
We all cried
Everyone says a dog is a man's best friend
But cats are better
Will a dog sit
and stay
On your lap for hours at a time?
* * *
We have to read a book for school
A book
I'm scared
I won't read it
THEY CAN'T MAKE ME!
* * *
Remember I love you, Aria. Remember good times, Aria. Don't be afraid of loosing yourself, Aria. It's the first step to finding yourself, Aria.
Mom's right Aria. Loose yourself in a book. Don't be scared. Let go. Experience new things, new books. Find your best friend. Find your Hermione.
* * *
I hear their voices
All around
Me
I take their words
Past them here
Maybe it'll help
* * *
Willie
Oh Willie
Whiskers translucent
Eyes green
Fur the beautiful color
Of every color
Paws delicate
As they tread
Through the house that isn't
The home that won't
Ever be
* * *
Ms. Barr has cancer
It's her third round
Of it
At least she has a chance
Lilly and Mother didn't
* * *
I read today
I put Willie on my lap
And sat on my bed
I sang first
A simple song
A lullaby that I wrote
Slow and sweet
To prepare me
And then-
I was fine at first
The book
Misty of Chingotege
Was good
Then...
It was horrid
I lost myself
I was gone into that small world
I couldn't get out
Willie kept mewing and trying to calm me
To keep me safe
From myself
I couldn't control it
I was lost
